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Thursday, March 1st, 2007

Subject:like, whoa.
Time:3:25 pm.
yeah. haven't posted in this one in quite some time. but doug doesn't check it anymore. he uses my computer and can even see locked posts (referring to <lj user="wwjarvisd">). so i'm taking advantage of that. cos i wanna say... i want to marry him. not like, now.  but. someday.
3 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Friday, May 13th, 2005

Subject:W.W.Jarvis.D.?
Time:6:08 pm.
Mood:whiney-bitchy-poor me-fuck me-go away-ness.
i'm trying to be optimistic, i really am. but it turns out i can only work at the shop (or soon to be c-store/bookstore/virtual bookstore extravaganza) a whopping 2 days a week. dude form 5/30 wants me at the station 3 days a week, all day, and present for events. i was fine with not getting paid for any of this until i realized i'm going over my 18 hours/week requirement. to make it worse, i will miss an entire paycheck because i'm going on "vacation" for a week and completing a full week of training at the station when i get back. not looking forward to graduation. i could seriously care less. not looking forward to this Mexico business that my family signed me up for (i'd rather stay at home by myself and work, so someone should go in my place), not looking forward to interning, not looking forward to a damn thing.

i think toward the end of june, i'm going to seek out a night job of some sort. that's the only thing that would make me less of a wreck. i will admit, i'm fucking spoiled as hell and got carried away with credit. that's why i'm freaking out in the first place. bills. i need to get shit paid off before august, when i go from having little job to no job.

i'm looking at CDs i recently purchased and my iPod with "THIS IS HARDCORE" engraved on the back. yeah. real hardcore. so much stuff i could sell (and should sell), but i can't. either way, i'll be miserable, ha.

i'm such a poor planner. and it's too late to drop out of this internship and try to find another one. out of the question. i need to do this, get my fucking degree, get a job and move the hell out of this house. not feeling so dignified at the moment.

there are other things to be thankful for, i will admit this. and things will get better, i know. for sure, even. this coming month is just gonna blow a bit. AND because of all this nonsense, i may/may not see Spoon. Haven't bought my ticket yet. I dunno. It's pathetic how much i'm depending on my relatives' generosity when graduation goes down. if i could pay off a good chunk of debt and see a really fucking good show, i'd be relieved.

i even thought about canceling my cell phone, but i haven't even had it for a year, which means i'd have to pay 150-odd bucks to cancel it. yay.

Trail of Dead and International Noise Conspiracy better put on one of the greatest shows ever, as i'm weary of spending the last of my cash on gas money to see them tomorrow.
1 lazer guided melody - will you be my j spaceman?

Wednesday, May 11th, 2005

Subject:Employers only want employees with good skills.
Time:6:36 pm.
Mood: okay.
so i seriously contemplated getting a new job today. and after submitting my first application, online, in four years, i'm already kind of backing down on the idea. but only cos i realized there's stuff in June that i CANNOT miss (i.e. Dave Attell, Spoon & the Clientele), and if i get a new job, particularly one that involves afternoons/evenings, well, y'know, scheduling issues might arise. and scheduling issues could possibly turn into unemployment issues. god. i suck.

the store is just killing me. and i found out today that over the summer, we will no longer be open Saturdays and will only be open 8-5/5:30 p.m. makes sense, no argument there, but between the 3 of us and my internship, i'd be lucky if i got 15 hours a week. which would leave me with just enough for bills and gas, but i'd also be quite bitter in the meantime.

so that's that. i promise, every time i go to make an update, i really do try to convey thoughts unrelated to work/school/money, but i can't help but be conscious about those things ALL THE TIME. now, more than ever.

and the idea of journaling online (or doing anything online, for that matter), is oh-so passive that i can get away with bitching about shit no one but me cares about because you can just scroll right on over it, as you've probably done already.

christ- i forgot i put the French version of "To the End" on here. ha. i'm sure my facial expression was of the golden sort.

anywho. yeah. i'm guessing i'll stick it out at the store, as i just remembered the good ol' Slice and the hefty raise they gave me. at the very least, i'll end up with an extra $75-$150 bucks in my pocket each month. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

on a closing note, reading job classifieds was the most discouraging things i've done in a while because it made me realize how i lack in skills. based on previous jobs, i can file things alphabetically, bag groceries, clean spills, operate a cash register, answer phones (i.e., "Hello?") and write shitty music reviews.

Some people's genitals are more marketable than my entire existence. Oh, snap.
4 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Tuesday, May 10th, 2005

Subject:omg.
Time:12:19 pm.
Mood: amused.
This is the best game ever. And apparently the drummer from Blur had something to do with it. Awethome.
7 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Monday, May 9th, 2005

Time:4:25 pm.
Mood: sleepy.
stuff:

got a hard copy of hyperactive in the mail today. pretty damn sweet. also, turns out the MySpace review made it as a "web exclusive." it's on the bottom of the homepage. it's not that great, now that i've seen it in its final form. i dunno.

BUT, funnily enough, i checked my MySpace messages and totally got a friend request from Chin Up Chin Up today. awethome. no matter how hard i try, i just can't deny my fangirldom.

well, back to work on something that i'm actually really fucking relieved i'm not sharing on LJ. there's a lot of those. and i feel better sharing certain things with certain people instead of everything to everyone. they seem to lose their luster otherwise. some of you are still strangers, let's face it. so what's the point in sharing if you wouldn't understand? i dunno... that may have been a bit blunt, but, eh, fuck it. i wouldn't have said it in the first place i didn't mean it.
1 lazer guided melody - will you be my j spaceman?

Sunday, May 8th, 2005

Subject:Oh, Moz. He makes me melt, he does.
Time:3:58 pm.
Mood:full. deathly full.
relatives wear me out. But it was good to see people... even though i will be seeing them again in 2 weeks.

totally slept on a twin-sized mattress in my parents' closet last night.

felt bad that everyone kept harassing jason to speak theme park spanish. mexicans get off on that kind of thing, apparently.

the house is quieter than usual. everyone is on their way back to new mexico or monte vista. i vacuumed an absurd amount of crumbs, thanks to kids. next: laundry, nap, video games, mix tape making and Smiths listening, though not necessarily in that order.

bre got her flowers yesterday and left me a nice message this morning. still a bit puzzled at how close of friends we've managed to be after all these years. total opposites. but i'm glad she's still around. she's pretty much the only one from high school days that i can say that about.

got a belated birthday present (a.k.a. Trail of Dead gas money) from Uncle Nick which was coo. Also got a bp gas card from my grandma which i totally can't use because bp stations no longer exist and arco stations are in states west of colorado. i'll save it though. doesn't expire until july of '06. i'd like to think i'd be taking a road trip out west between now and then. we'll see. pathetic how a $30 gas card could inspire such a thing, but, y'know, whateva.

my faulty CD tower crashed for about the third or fourth time on friday. i've officially given up on it and neatly arranged a fraction of my CDs in a single row on the floor, against a wall. books and movies are piled in various places. yay. kinda took me back to the summer of '97, when my collection first began to grow. i neatly piled blur and radiohead CDs around my little boom box, all on the floor, against the wall. they sat under the window. kinda funny how, in a house of over 2400 sq. feet, that little area was my only source of happiness for months. i would say "good times," but, eh. totally rambling.

ok. nap happens now.
3 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Saturday, May 7th, 2005

Subject:Look, it's a super ball, just like you said!
Time:9:56 am.
Mood: full.
thanks, curby_stivison!

carl
You're Carl! You're just an average scummy guy who
experiences a lot of crazy shit because of his
human-sized food-shaped neighbors. You have a
sweet car and a nice pool, but you're still
gross.


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1 lazer guided melody - will you be my j spaceman?

Friday, May 6th, 2005

Subject:Don't say nothin' 'bout the old house, cos I burned it to the ground.
Time:6:07 pm.
Mood: happy.
um, i'm graduating. soon. so....

May 20th
9:30 a.m.
World Arena
UCCS Commencement Ceremony

I don't expect people to get up early on a Friday to see me walk across a stage. Even I don't want to get up early to do that.

SO, you should come to this instead:

May 21st

4 p.m.- QUESTION MARK "I don't know when I'm comin' home, Mama!" I love Todd Barry. Anywho.

7345 Centennial Glen Dr
(I-25 to Garden of the Gods. Head west on G.o.g. and right on Centennial Blvd. You'll take Centennial pretty much forever. You'll pass Vindicator (you'll see Walgreens and Blockbuster on your left), curve around a hill, and turn right on Centennial Glen Dr. Watch out for deer. I'm fucking serious.)

Call 719-532-0171 if you get lost.

i want Harrison Bergeron to play in my backyard just cos it would be funny to see Harrison Bergeron play to a bunch of drunk Mexicans and some semi-black guy, a.k.a. my dad.

that's it. woo for making deadlines.

Ooooo! "Threadneedle Street." I love this song. I love shuffle.
5 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Thursday, May 5th, 2005

Time:8:00 pm.
oh yeah...

you can download the latest issue of hyperactive here (PDF file). i know it gets distributed at Wax Trax in D-town... i honestly don't know where else... i haven't checked independent yet, but i'm sure it's there cos independent advertises in there.

my jon fritz review made it, and sure as shit, they spelled my last name wrong. guess i didn't correct them in time. and my MySpace review didn't make it, apparently, which i was kinda bummed about cos it was kinda funny AND it contained my first Peter North reference. dang. oh well. they might put it on the web site some where, but i doubt it.

ok. that's seriously it for the day.
will you be my j spaceman?

Subject:IT'S DA REEEMIIIX!
Time:7:16 pm.
Mood:random.
not of any real importance, but if anyone (2 people) would be the least bit interested in seeing julie lee on saturday, for free, let me know, as i was offered 2 passes earlier today and accepted them, very well knowing that i couldn't actually go.

she's actually not half bad. i'm not a huge fan of contemporary western/bluegrass, BUT, she's also got a lot of jazz and blues influence which makes it bearable. some of it reminds me of Joni Mitchell and good ol' Ella Fitzgerald. anywho.

that's about it really. a shitload of relatives are coming tomorrow. not sure where i'm sleeping, ha. and i gotta remember to hide my dirty business from kids. it's all currently under the bed, but i was a kid once, so i know what gems of naughtiness can be found under the bed.

it's cinco de mayo, apparently. i was going to rant about how the holiday is celebrated in more contemporary times, but it would just be me belittling my own people and honestly, i'm a bit too tired. i was up early on my morning off, calling julie lee in nashville and interviewing. i tried to go back to sleep after that, but the phone kept ringing, so i just gave up.

watched "Sideways" last night with j.lo. i know i of all people shouldn't be frightened of random flopping wangs, but i totally was. haha. great film though. i now understand why everyone was so pissed paul didn't get nominated. and i was kinda disappointed that thomas hayden church did. but i can't act, so what the fuck do i know?

the ultimate list issue of SPIN had me cracking up. it's got some funny shit in it. it's also got trent reznor on the cover, which some of you can appreciate. there's a small ian curtis death anniversary piece as well, but it wasn't nearly as good as the one in MOJO.

i'm such a fucking nerd. i'm gonna start an article now. so i can hopefully get paid $75 that i could really use right now.
2 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Wednesday, May 4th, 2005

Subject:Oh, Phil Margera.
Time:2:53 pm.
Mood: relieved.
Whats your gang by The_molecular_man
Name;
Color of the bandanna you sport
Number of creds you got2
Number of hoes you pimp47
What you look like
Your main hoe
Your Gang
How Much Money You Make PIMPING$187,880,780
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2 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Sunday, May 1st, 2005

Time:9:32 pm.
Mood:der. better, but still der.
FOUND: "Fuzzy Logic." And a Smiths case that I didn't even know was missing. Fucking hell.

Also, listened to "Citizen's Band" and uploaded Porcupine Tree songs to my iPod and felt really stupid for feeling, i dunno... I don't wanna say "sad," necessarily... Cos it wasn't a genuine feeling. just a mood. PMS is pretty lame. anywho, the source of those discs makes me feel incredibly lucky. yeah. i could type pages on how he makes me want to shout from rooftops, etc., but i'll spare ye. today, anyway, heh.

i forgot to mention in the last post that my sister walked in on me masturbating, yet again, last night. she didn't see/suspect anything cos the lights were off and i was under the covers, but, yeah. just barged in at 11 o' clock, with the door shut and all. i was just really glad i wasn't watching Monsters of Cock this time. seriously, wtf?

also sent Bre a bouquet of tulips for graduation. and mom helped me out by supplying her with some gift cards. hopefully she'll understand. i just can't drive to Highlands Ranch and make it back in time for Andrea's thing... And if I did, I'd only be able to stay for like, 15-20 minutes. and i might have to work anyway, so, buh. i still suck.

i complain about being broke, yet i still manage to buy a ticket to Trail of Dead. I have to go, man. I missed them last time and this time they're coming with the International Noise Conspiracy, who i've been wanting to see for a while as well.

So, there it is. I need a sticky note somewhere, probably near my laptop screen, that says, "You could've been born in Sudan," just to keep me from complaining about the lamest shit that i tend to come up with. i'm just a fat spoiled brat, is what boils down to.

EDIT:New Edition is reforming, which, for some reason, makes me really happy. And Adam is planning a LoCO 3. I posted on leechpit that i'd be down for helping out. The last one, albeit a bit stressful, was hell of fun. So I'm gonna keep myself busy this summer and help out again. Word.

SECOND EDIT: the New Edition reform isn't really happening, per se. The members just said they would welcome back Bobby Brown. Fucking Darkness, getting me all worked up for nothing.
3 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Subject:I'm just a four-eyed fuck.
Time:1:00 pm.
Mood: cranky.
LOST my copy of "Fuzzy Logic" by SFA. FOUND a half-eaten bag of Sweet 'n' Spicy mix under my desk. Ate the mix, still haven't found the CD. It was last seen on my desk, during the great SFA iPod upload. I get the feeling i somehow knocked it into the trash can near my desk. Trash was emptied thursday night and picked up friday.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.

not the greatest weekend ever, but it was shaping out to be alright. saw some one act plays at UCCS last night... getting updates from J.Lo., as he's in D-town working security at that Sci-Fi convention, in hopes of meeting the Shat. Then I woke up with a sore neck and losing this CD has pretty much made this the worst May 1st ever.

I haven't lost a CD since I was 14. It was Blur's "Parklife," and really, I never lost it- I just left it at my cousin's house and in the meantime, panicked and spent $18.99 on an additional copy at Sam Goody. She returned the original copy a week later and Andrea inherited the new one.

Not feeling anything right now. I've already calculated that my next paycheck is pretty much already gone. Not in the mood to listen to/review this Julie Lee CD sitting on my desk and certainly not in the mood to write interview questions for her. Not in the mood for a van load of Mexicans (a.k.a. my relatives) to stay with us for Andrea's confirmation this saturday (which is causing me to miss Bre's graduation party). Love my family, good people, just not in the mood for it. at all, really. and aside from the weekend of the 14th, i will be seeing them every weekend in May.

I ate shitty food this weekend, went through the usual guilt and realized I've more or less been on a diet since I was like, 12. A whole fucking decade and I've nothing to show for it. Between that, losing my job in August and losing SFA's first full-length, I'm just a tad discouraged at the moment.

I think I'm gonna go cry for about 5 minutes, do some laundry and play some Paper Mario. Things will be alright, I just wish I wasn't conscious of them all at once.
5 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Wednesday, April 27th, 2005

Subject:So many ways to co-mmuni-caaate.
Time:3:34 pm.
Mood: loved.
not that i didn't already know, but the fact that i have the best boyfriend in the world was reaffirmed this afternoon, as he visited my at work and gave me 2 CDs. The first one had "Citizen's Band" by SFA on it. I know it shouldn't mean much, but it totally does.

if anyone wants me to e-mail it to them or something, let me know, as i'm feeling generous and willing to, "share the wealth," as they say...

the second disc contained a mix of Porcupine Tree songs and it's quite ace.

My day hath been made. I'm so easily impressed, I know.

There honestly hasn't been a whole lot going on, between my part-time job and ONE class... I got a $25 raise at the Slice which was pretty tits, considering I have 2 assignments this month. So, I'll be getting $75 an article, if (and it usually does) run in all 3 zones. that was a nice surprise since i haven't contributed since early March and was pretty sure they had forgotten about me.

I'm also eagerly awaiting for the latest issue of Hyperactive to come out, as I have not one, but two pieces in there... We'll see... I've yet to see the final copies of either, but judging by the democratic editing process, I don't think my ideas were too violated. It would be a relief, honestly. They're both small pieces, so to see them in their intended form would be awethome. it has yet to happen, between the Scribe and the Slice. I think the only piece I've written that I was satisfied with was the Eyes Caught Fire piece. And that's rather sad, considering the number of articles I've written in the past 2.5 years. ANYWHO. Heh... It's funny [to me] how I'm taking these pieces of "work" so seriously... One piece has a Peter North reference and the other just disses on middle-aged white jam rock. But... still... Just don't fuck up my shit, man.

hmm... Operation: iPod Upload is still underway. such a grueling process. but it must be done... and it must be done before we leave for vacation.

Also, really digging the Futureheads. Yeah.

Falling in love is also quite cool.

Speaking of love, wings are happening tonight. I finally healed from the damage incurred at WingFest 2000 and have been able to eat various flavors of wings without feeling like i'm gonna hurl every time. "thanks for all of your support. it's been a long haul, but in the end, God held out a hand, and we were able to pull through in that last quarter."

that's not a real quote per se, but i imagine it's been said by some sweaty beefcake, in some locker room, at the end of some super bowl game, some year.

even though i told my boss i'd stay through the summer, i think i'm gonna start poking around elsewhere anyway. which, with my luck, ultimately means nothing remotely interesting will be available and i'll end up stuck there until August, as planned. i'm just sick of seeing the same damn faces everyday. and i've never really liked my boss, or my coworkers, except Heather cos she's pretty sweet. a few more months shouldn't matter, but, oi.

Still looking forward to Trail of Dead and Spoon AND Dave Attell... More so than graduating, actually. Rocking out with your cock out always wins in the end, whatcanisay?

that's about it, really. May is bound to be probably one of the busiest months ever. and anyone who wants a grad announcement should e-mail me their address. E-mail within 5 minutes of reading this post and receive a free naked photo!

Lastly, oh snap, Mother's Day is coming up. And my mom has such expensive taste. Sigh.
2 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Monday, April 25th, 2005

Subject:A favor of the sorts...
Time:5:28 pm.
Mood:needy.
To those selected few on my friends list who dig the mighty Super Furry Animals...

Do any of you know where I could access an mp3 of "Citizen's Band" (the hidden track on Guerrilla where you have to hit rewind right after "Check It Out" starts...)???

Or perhaps you could tell a dumbass like me how to rip/record that track from the CD itself... I dunno. I just need it on my iPod.

OR, if it's a B-side on one of the Guerrilla singles, just let me know which one and i'll friggin' buy it.

Thanks.

Although I have a feeling no one will respond to this.
2 lazer guided melodies - will you be my j spaceman?

Subject:"Am I the biggest loser on the beach?" "No... I am."
Time:4:26 pm.
Mood:dumb.


Your Japanese Name Is...









Jin Hosokoawa



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Friday, April 22nd, 2005

Subject:Yeah, I'm doin' the drywall at the new McDonald's.
Time:10:52 am.

Lawrence


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Thursday, April 21st, 2005

Subject:Dude, my dad, owns this dealership.
Time:1:35 pm.
Mood:warm.
it's been a damn productive morning, if i say so myself. i mean, yeah, i didn't go to class, but i did do a load of laundry, tae-bo (hour tape. buh), showered, cooked breakfast, fixed my damn drawer in the bathroom that's been busted for a month, did the dishes, uploaded Ash and James Brown to my iPod, and masturbated, all before 1 o' clock. Time Management rules. And Bob Villa nothin'. I should start my own hardware line.

Anywho. I feel rested. Happy.

That's about all I got. I thought it would be a bit more longwinded, seeing as i've just been posting quizzes and surveys lately, but, eh. i think the lifeline of my journal is beginning to look like the rise and fall of the Starter brand. At first, people would pay $100+ for a Starter jacket and now you can find them on the clearance rack at K-Mart.

Right, then.
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Wednesday, April 20th, 2005

Subject:Gospel puts the 'G' in "Goosebumps."
Time:6:37 pm.
Mood: grateful.
handsome devil
You're "Handsome Devil"! A little B-side
that turned out to be one of The Smiths' best
songs, you thrash around naughtily and act like
sex on wheels.


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Monday, April 18th, 2005

Subject:taken from the the_shy_retirer
Time:5:31 pm.
Mood:procrastinating.
i'll write an actual post again someday...Collapse )

oh. and iPod Photo arrived today. despite the designated laser engraving, it really is hardcore.

ok. paper happens now. hopefully.
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